months lost mother received email close friend tonight sahitya alochana meeting heard news mother's passing offer heart-felt condolences suffered losses life hand sorrow good loved time life you'll watching feel presence heart feel deeply moved change life after-life felt compelled feel matter love blessings family email gayatri gamarsh allowed call gayatri-di helped cope pain months gayatri-di move after-life leaving mourning loss gayatri-di literary works love artistic love coming plays appreciated times written plays anandasambad magazines appreciation encouragement meant team mates people gayatri-di makes hard work writing staging play worth september participated workshop creative bengali writing conducted sunil gangopadhyay rescheduled heart surgery attend workshop online time heard voice phone surgery email article cartoon sambad bichitra english section chance hand mentioned gayatri-di email watching play read article write cartoon draw goodbye gayatri-di encouragement blessings source inspiration future 