trip calcutta chiaroscuro amitava pile sarees stacked shop counter recognized pleasantly surprised gouri jersey gariahat ladies tailoring shop confess customer frequent visitor place long stays calcutta wife carries order blouses friends annual trip calcutta stuff calls visits logistical considerations found save time gasoline drop-in tailor shop destinations inquired gouri stay travel plans india total weeks discloses week calcutta days bombay bangalore relatives parents deceased sister bangalore cousin bombay informed tailoring shop hemming attaching fall netting sarees purchased mention stitching blouses matching pile sarees counter back shop wondering aloud manage sarees week stay calcutta wife explained sarees purchased cities resplendent saree shops conjectured sarees city sarees unique kind dirt cheap price dollars wife indignant insensitivity immediately relented understood obvious reason purchase sarees pleased remorse wife confided gouri bought tailoring shop gouri brought home mind back america sell friends cost include hefty profit call service charge rightly recover marketing selling expenses include dinner place made mental note excuse dinner invitation gouri return brought gouri india coming back ostensively relatives sarees gouri conceivably wear year major reason true gouri partly true rest grueling hours trip calcutta stay hotel guest house sequestered ramkrishna mission institute culture golpark place stay friends relatives stay calcutta arguably unpleasant place polluted pot-holed noisy pristine tourist attraction stretch imagination feel good feel good feel good inflated larger life power trip establish proclaim found power esteem country grew place money muscle connection mattered rich daoud ibrahim brother jyoti babu chance power found power adequate money adequacy measured indian yardstick expect people back country awestruck respect flaunt money power united states live diaspora difficult noticed compatriots mirror easier india aura american mystique body left country country note call press conferences calcutta announce upcoming events staged solely audience united states held baghdad timbuktu cultural aficionados drama reviewers calcutta care attract audience sell ticket engender mention calcutta press suspect lurking minds shadows urge claim fifteen minutes glory back homeland voluntarily severed impose glorified unreal images desperately seeking noticed thought revisit country search happiness unhappy mahabharatian definition dharma asked judhistir considered happy life judhistir answered happy person live home indebted huge mortgage credit card debts yardstick unhappy relate feel happy aircraft touches dumdum walk dirty dusty chaotic immigration hallway discover people feeling reflects forward meeting relatives friends plans saree punjabi feel home touchy-feely feel slight person midst white folks back home happy leave suddenly comfortable fitting-in completely home 